These people have nothing to prove. If they don't want to share their bread with you, then get your hands out of their damn bread-basket. There's no false-Christian generosity or humility in the way they act. It's strictly survival of the fittest. The laws are different when you are international and if they want to cut your throat and steal your bank pin then they will. They may be your crew but they are better than you and more entitled than you, they have more stipulations in their deal-memo, they make more per hour than you and they want you to know it. And I love it, because it is real. They are negative and moody and their rotten attitude is infectious. They drink too much and they eat too little and sleep too little and everyone else is dirty and selfish but they are faultless. And I find it funny, because these are the people that make TV happen. Sure, on a bigger network things would be run more tightly, but this is the reality of the way most shows are filmed. I suppose I'm no better, but I've definitely got something different going on. Nonetheless, I'm having a blast. I'm in Europe, I'm shooting a TV show, I've got more control than I know what to do with, and I am being paid quite well to be here.
Tomorrow I will be at Oktoberfest shooting all day. And when I say all day I'm talking about 14 to 16 hours of very hard work and I love it. The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the bad attitudes, the fighting, the back-stabbing and the bickering. But at the same time I'm living a dream.