Sunday, January 28, 2007

Lessons in Positivity

A few weeks ago, my friend Kyle and I went and got some breakfast at a restaurant called Cafe Brazil. As we were sitting amidst the packed restaurant we got to talking about Dallas stereotypes in comparison to the types of girls that we are attracted to. Now Kyle and I share some similar tastes in art and culture, I would say that Kyle is a bit more informed when it comes to what is truly cool, but we can agree on the types of people we like to surround ourselves with. I got to drinking coffee and initiated a bashing session, centered around what could be deemed the post-fratboy stereotype. We were getting carried away, having our dialogue about how great the two of us were, and as we finished eating Kyle looked down, thinking, and said, "jeez, I feel kind of bad that we've been so negative this whole time." And then, "we're awesome." I looked down. I felt guilty. It was true. My heart burns for injustice around the world, but my negativity is a result of my own insecurity. And that brings us up to speed.

I've decided that for a little while I'm going to force myself to remain positive on subjects which I would normally have quite a grim outlook. For example, in the case of global warming, I am forcing myself to believe that technology will get us out of this mess. That's right, I'm forcing myself to BELIEVE that there is a positive and approaching solution. I wish that I could give you a list as to all the things that I am doing to change my negative ways, but if I did you would most likely warn me against them. But I have to do this. I've made myself miserable here for the last two years trying to exist as myself in circles I don't fit nicely into. So instead of celebrating my differences, I am assimilating. And trust me, people like it. People like it when you are like them, it makes them more comfortable. I'm also smiling at them a lot. After my first week of giving in to the culture I can see a huge difference in the way that my personality is received.

Just a reminder, this isn't permanent. I'm going to go back to being my unsatisfied self fairly shortly, but only after I ride this one out for a while. More specific updates soon.

Friday, January 26, 2007

The Decision to be Positive

I've made a pretty huge decision. It will not be permanent by any means, but it is an experiement that I am taking on for the next couple of weeks, in which I will give in to the temptations of the city I live in and the culture at large, of which I am a part in this glorious region of this glorious nation, and of which my age and social status makes me an integral part.

More news very soon.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

The Posts That Dreams Are Made Of

Rather than write anything of my own today I'll direct your attention to one of my friends who is much funnier than me. Here is a funny post by my friend Sara.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Landmass


Photo courtesy of Sara Kerens ©SAK Photoography
I just can't stop thinking about traveling. I signed on to a big job for the next month. 50 hour weeks, plus work on Saturday and Sunday. It's going to be painful to do it, but I need that money saved away so that I can take off in a jet or a boat or a train, to see this wonderful planet that God has created and given us dominion over. There is so much beautiful creation that I need to touch and taste and smell!

Friday, January 19, 2007

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

God's Providence in Evolution

My first love was zoology. Yep, if you would have asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, when I was eight, I would have proudly said that I wanted to be a zoologist, or a veterinarian. Here are some animals that are uniquely specialized:I'm hoping to make a trip to the Galapagos soon. The bee in the picture is from the Galapagos, and doesn't have the ability to sting. Most of these animals will probably go extinct in the next century. Bummer too, 'cause I really like them.

This is an article about a new conservation program that protects "Evolutionarily unique species."

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Compiling a List of My Favorite Blogs

Dooce.com Mrs. Heather Armstrong. I got turned onto Dooce's website by a coworker who described her as a humorous ex-Mormon. Since creating her blog in 2001, Heather has changed her style from a clever designer and office worker, through a heart-breaking post-partum depression, to that of a clever, proud, strong blogging mom. Most of her posts these days revolve around her family and her adorable daughter Leta. It's good stuff. And she's also a really good photographer and designer, and unfailingly funny.

Es Kerezy Speaks This is a blog kept up by my friend Sara Kerens. Sara is in the process of becoming a photographer and has been posting some really funny stuff lately, usually accompanied by some pretty good pics. I've been enjoying her blog more and more.

I'm Feeling Good This blog is the work of my friend Cara. I first met Cara on a trip to Little Rock with an assortment of friends in which we all camped in a park for 5 days. It was a wierd and pointless trip, but there was some magic behind it. Cara has a sweetness and a sense of hope behind her writing that I really enjoy. I reccomend her stuff.

Kottke.org Ah, Mr. Kottke. This is one of my favorite websites, informative, entertaining and a loyal poster for the last 5 years, Jason Kottke is a force to be recconed with. His posts are often about Science, city development, literature, web-technology and other brainy items, but they are also usually entertaining and repeatedly trend-setting.

Luminocity This was one of the first random blogs that I stumbled upon when I started writing here in June of 2005. I lost the link for a while but I recently stumbled across it and started reading it again. It is kept up by a girl named Lori, who is from Canada. Lori's interests seem to swirl around ethical philosophy and science, and I like that.

Notions on Being Notions on Being, are the thoughts, usually in true diary fashion, of my good friend Martha Belden. To say that Martha has a tendency of long windedness would be a total undertatement. Martha is a writer by profession and doesn't seem to ever tire of penning her thoughts. She's gaining what seems to be a serious following.

Seat of Your Pants This is a blog kept up by my friend Nathan Sharp. Nathan has another blog called Call•Me•Jonah, but Seat of Your Pants is where he writes when he is out of the country off on some adventure. At the moment Nathan is in South Korea teaching English. Nate's an interesting guy with a creative mind and I'm enjoying his stuff.

There was one other writer, who was one of my absolute favorites, who's blog I stumbled upon completely by accident, her name was Esme, but she has deleted her blog. This used to be it. I am in withdrawls.

I don't know if any of these writers want anything to do with me posting links to their sites on my blog, but their stuff is published on the internet so they don't really have a choice. This whole blogging thing is a phenomenon I am a fan of.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Why Get Up


Your body's never gonna pay you any money.

Monday, January 08, 2007

This is Nothing More Than a Diary Entry


There are chemicals swimming around inside my brain right now that are making me unhappy. I am not actually unhappy though, everything in my life is actually going really great, but because I feed host to addictions, my brain is being flooded with signals telling me that if I stay up late, and if I feed my desires that I will once again be at peace. But it's all a lie being played out in my mind, somewhere between the mental and the physical. The oceans are polluted, there is no good public transportation infrastructure in this city and our vistas are disappearing with every new housing development on the outskirts of town. I'm sick of it and I'm moving away. I've continued to tell myself, since becoming so aware of our destruction that because I'm against these things, that I will be saved from the wrath that is our punishment. But I am doing nothing. I pledged to NPR last year, but that's about all that I can say I've done. I went on a mission trip to Brazil, but I was incredibly ineffective at telling anyone that a man named Jesus who was called the Christ was a historical figure who was the embodiment of God himself, the creator of everything in the universe, including our consciousness, and let alone getting any further.And then I came back to this city and ever since then I've felt worse than when I left. So, I'm not just moving away, but I'm also moving on to a new faze of my life in which I will just not care to play into the mores of a city that I just don't like culturally. I'm not sure where I'm going or what organization that I am going to start, but I've already begun dressing down and I've stopped using shampoo and started washing my hair with soap. I don't think that I'm losing my mind, but I'm sick and tired of trudging through the mud of the American dream, I need a solid rock to stand on.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

I just ate...


2 Grolsh Beers
1 half Nutella, 1 half peanut butter sandwich
1 can of organic Tortilla soup
1/4 tub of cookies and cream ice cream
5 faux, veggie chicken nuggets
1 Emergen-C packet
and I'll probably have a big bowl of cereal and some other stuff.

I've had a body fat index in the single digits pretty much my entire life. A small part of that is gentics I'm sure, but the other reasons that I stay so slim are the following: I run about 10 to 15 miles a week, I drink about the equivalent of 4 cups of coffee a day, I skip a lot of the places I go on a daily basis, and other than what's listed above, I try to eat mostly organic and well-balanced medium calorie meals. I know, hooray for me.

Monday, January 01, 2007

The Boy who Plays on the Buddhas of Bamiyan

This film moved me. It is about a boy living in Afghanistan after the Taliban has fallen out of power in 2003. It's really amazing and I reccomend it to you.

Here is the main site for the film: The Boy who Plays on the Buddhas of Bamiyan

Here is the trailer: Quicktime, Flash Small, Flash Large

The Sundance Channel is amazing. Monday is doc-day. And I would also reccomend the show One Punk Under God, which is on The Sundance Channel on Wednesdays at 9pm. It is a documentary series about the son of Jim and Tammy Fay, who is starting a new and different kind of Christian ministry, reaching out to groups considered taboo my mainstream Christianity.