There is a good chance that I'll be taking things more slowly this year. Some would say it was the choices I made, others might say it's fate or luck. I don't believe in any of that exactly, especially not luck. The word "luck" doesn't even make sense to me, it's illogical. I believe things happen the way they are meant to happen. If I round this corner and solve this current problem, having spent the last of my savings and dipped heavily into my credit. If some miracle bails me out, well then, that's the way it is and the way it was supposed to be. If not, if I have to take things slow for a while, I'm prepared to do it. I'm going to come out a better person next year.
I hope I get to continue to travel and live an adventurous life though, the excitement of survival in unfamiliar territory has become my equilibrium.
P.S. Traveling and making videos is my career. I took two months off to make a movie in New Zealand and shoot a pilot in Australia and it took a lot of money to do it, but it was an investment. I fully expect to be traveling for work again soon. This is a bit of a unique situation, but I tend to go into a bit of a depressed slump for about a week after returning from a high-intensity, long-term trip abroad.