Sunday, October 25, 2009

Eventual Revamp

There is a good chance that until December 8th, I'll just be too busy to do anything good here. But maybe I'm wrong?

I have some great ideas kicking around in my head. GREAT ideas I tell you! Creativity is coursing through my veins. I guess I'll make money and gain some experience for a few more weeks while it lasts. And then, THEN - then it's on.

Friday, October 23, 2009

The Amazing Mechanics of High-Budget Television

My mind has nearly completely been taken over by the TV show that I'm working on. I've been putting in 15 hours per day, 5 days a week, for two business weeks. It's been an eye opening experience. A great learning experience. I'm exhausted, but I'm proud to be a part of this TV show that we're all on a team to make. On the other hand, I've had no time to sleep, no time to maintain relationships and absolutely no time to write here. I'm looking forward to the days when I can wake up at 9am, walk across the house in my boxers, edit for a while, work out, go lay out in the back yard and cook myself lunch. I'm taking advantage of this experience while it lasts though.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

To Create Again

I'm not sure what happened, how I got off track. I went through a period where my creativity flourished, about 4 years ago, and then for two years. I wrote stories, I drew, I made videos, I blogged, I video blogged. And then it all tapered off. Maybe it was the rejection, the TV screener we produced getting official letters of rejection from networks, or our documentary subject killing himself. It got really bad after New Zealand and Australia. It was spending my savings - that hurt. And I started getting desperate for work, just anything to pay the bills. And I got scared.

I'm realizing right now, right this very second, that the act of creation is what brings me fulfillment, and not necessarily even the finishing, although that's important, to follow through. And even though I worked 75 hours last week and this week promises more, I'm going to actively pursue creativity all day long. I'm going to make things out of stir-sticks. I'm going to write in my little pocket notebook, I'm going to compose haikus about the characters around me, all day long. And I'm going to write a few things here, and I'm going to edit some travel videos and throw them up on the internet for the world to see. I see now that creativity, like writing, like our body, gets out of shape if it isn't exercised. And once our minds start to get sluggish, slow, old, flabby; it gets exponentially harder to have any imagination at all. And then we become adults, and we become boring and our fleeting depression turns into acceptance and then monotony and then we become "Americans."

No, that wont do.

I don't need to get paid. There are plenty of jobs for me to do. But I will get paid, eventually. And in the process, while that very slowly starts to happen, I'll be one of the happy few. And others may not understand this, why I am so happy when their lives are so boring and normal. And they'll think I'm crazy, or lazy, or probably lucky. But it won't be luck at all.

"Luck" - what a terrible word.

I want to scream something and charge around. Lead a rebellion. I think I'll go work out now, then come back to this computer and edit the short story I've been wanting to show you. Yes, indeed.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Don't Wanna Get Dooced Here

Sending an email to the production office on my iPhone yesterday, not realizing that my gmail signature, with all of my contact info - Skype, Twitter, Blog, Youtube, would go out on the bottom; I accidentally gave my blog info to the Network producing the TV show I'm working on.

This is me officially saying that I won't write anything, anywhere on the internet about what I'm working on.

In other news, I've worked 57 hours in the last 4 days, and it looks like this is going to continue for a while, so I will not be updating every day (not that I'd been writing very faithfully lately anyway). However, when I do write, it WILL NOT be about the show (If you're reading this, hi Matt!).

Everything has been good, More Than It Is (short film shot in New Zealand) is in L.A., slowly being edited. I'm still living in Dallas. That's it for now. Talk to you soon.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Full Time Work For Fall

I just received a call from the 2nd A.D., hiring me full time on the TV show shooting here in Dallas. If you were following my Tweets at the end of September, you'll know that I moved back to Dallas from L.A. to work on the show and then ended up turning down the job they offered me, because the position just wasn't right for me. In a turn of events, after doing two weeks of freelance video work to stay busy, they called me back and offered me a different, and better position. I start tomorrow at 6:40 a.m. and there's a chance I'll be working nearly every day for the rest of the year. I'll give you more news when I have it. I'm very excited!

Wednesday, October 07, 2009


"The only artists I have ever known who are personally delightful are bad artists. Good artists exist simply in what they make, and consequently are perfectly uninteresting in what they are. A great poet, a really great poet, is the most unpoetical of all creatures. But inferior poets are absolutely fascinating. The worse their rhymes are, the more picturesque they look. The mere fact of having published a book of second-rate sonnets makes a man quite irresistible. He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realize."
Oscar Wilde (The Picture of Dorian Gray)

I've lived wildly and I work manically - so I hope the above isn't as true as it sounds.

I came across this quote in Dave Eggers "Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius" today and I just put the book down after I read it. Most of the artists I admire (mostly filmmakers and writers, but some painters), are perfectly boring in their personal lives, but highly efficient and they make wonderful and interesting art. I'm neither efficient, boring, nor, in my opinion, have I produced much art that I'm REALLY proud of. I've got stories for days though, let me tell you.

Monday, October 05, 2009

Things Must Be Getting Better

Because I finally bought that sport coat I wanted (I even bought the matching pants)!

Also, I'm going to see this band on November 7th in Dallas. They're called Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros and I just bought their album "Up From Below" on iTunes for $7.99 - and it's good!

I even got a fancy haircut today. That's a whole lot of money spending for one day. It must be the sleep deprivation. Going to bed early tonight and getting back on track and keeping up with all this work. Good things ahead!

2:30am Stream Of Consciousness

I'll be up all night working on a video that needs to be uploaded to Youtube by 9am. I'm currently waiting on the last few clips to transfer off the camera and I can't get started until they're done, so I'm just going to continue writing, as fast as I can, without thinking about it, until they finish. Since I've been back home in Texas, freelance video work has picked up like crazy. One of my best clients, Oink Art LTD, an online street art supplier, commissioned me to do another round of videos for their wildly popular Youtube channel we started about two years ago (we have around 4 million views on our videos). On top of that, a band has hired me to edit a bunch of promotional videos for them. Also, I am in talks with a film production company in Dallas, to start coming in to take care of some assistant editing duties, roto-scoping and basic 3D work. All of this is making for a very busy Fall - just what I need to finally pay off my editing system and some of the lingering costs of my short film and television pilot that we shot in Australia and New Zealand at the beginning of the summer.

Well, the clips are done transferring and I have an all-nighter ahead of me, so I'm going to get to work.

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